Overwhelmed

I am completely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support I have witnessed today.  I told J last night when I blogged that I went ahead and "spat it all out" because weekends were usually a slow time for comments and maybe I wouldn't burden too many people with my troubles.  Wow.  I am simply amazed by the number of people I've never even "met" who are offering their prayers, hugs, and love.  Thank you hardly seems adequate, but it's about all I can muster at the time. 

Also, extra thanks to Allison and Krista who sent some of you my way.  It means a lot to me that you cared enough to "send in the troops."  None of you will ever know what your support means to me during this especially trying time.  Not too many IRL friends and family members even knew yet.  We were saving that secret for Mother's Day next week. 

It's been a tough day.  I guess it's all sinking in.  I was doing pretty well at keeping it all together, with only a few bouts of tears as we ran our usual Saturday errands.  But on the way home, I checked my email on my phone and saw that I had (at the time) 26 comments on my blog post from yesterday.  As I read them, I just cried harder.  I talked to J about how amazing this very special group of ladies in the blogosphere really are.  We may all be strangers, but our adversities have given us a bond that is simply incredible.

To answer a question (I'm so sorry, but I don't remember who asked), yes, my doctor will perform one more ultrasound before we go through with the D & C so we can see for ourselves that there is no longer a heart beating.  Also, E, my husband tried to ask the doctor yesterday if there could be some issue with me that would cause this to happen (such as a clotting disorder or something--he didn't know what to ask for, just if there could be some cause).  I am not sure the doctor completely understood his question, and I was too numb to think of words to help him with it, and we really didn't get much of an answer.  We will ask again, though.  Perhaps that will be some testing we pursue in time.

I love you all, and I'm sorry if I made you sad on your weekend.  But please know that your love, prayers, and support are greatly appreciated.  In time, I will try to visit each of your blogs to let you know, personally, just how much.

Hugs and love,